Oh self...why do you fail me so? My procrastination, my laziness, my lack of self control, my ignorance of consequences - no, my lack of concern for consequences....this will all be the death of me, LITERALLY!
Just this morning..I ate my breakfast. I'm full! I have all I need! Yet...someone brings donuts to the office. I know a donut is bad for me. I know it will screw up my blood sugar and make me feel bad. I know it will ruin my chance of being under my calorie goal. Yet, I ate not one but TWO! TWO DONUTS AFTER BREAKFAST! I mean, you can't choose between chocolate or glaze, am I right? As I'm eating it in all of it's delicious glory I am feeling disappointed in myself and then I feel disgusted as I shove down the second one.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!
I can't keep going this way. I know it. I just don't want to face it. I feel good about myself when I exercise and eat right so why do I continue to sabotage myself? I haven't blogged all week because...why would I want to continuously explain to you guys how I failed time and time again? Sometimes, after eating bad, I say to myself "I'm not going to log this on MFP. It will be my little secret.". Well, I may be able to lie on MFP but my cellulite is going to tell the truth. And for the record, I unwillingly always tell the truth on MFP. As i've said, time and time again, writing down my nutrition values really puts in to perspective how horrible i'm treating my body.
"When you feel like quitting, think about why you started"
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